So I just finished watching "Ordinary People" on TV. Darren is off on vacation with my Mom, Dan is at a soccer meeting and Payton is at Zack's house. A couple of glasses of wine and an Academy Award Winning tear jerker later and I'm a blubbering fool.
At the end, the kid tells his Dad how much he loves him and they embrace. Effing lost it. My chihuahua thinks I'm nuts because as the credits were rolling I was asking him if my boys would tell me how much they love me when they are grown. I think they will. They are both so affectionate and so loving and sweet. I guess I've just been waiting for them to turn into the Exorsist children when their heads start spinning around with teen-aged angst and intollerance for their parents, but at 12 and 14, they haven't done that yet.
As I drove up to the house tonight coming home from work, Payton was scootering away down the street towards Zack's house. When he saw me he stopped, turned around, scootered up to my window and leaned in to give me a kiss. Are you f*&king kidding me? Is he just so totally playing me that he knows how to reach in and yank my heart out? Who is this kid?
He's MINE! He's the most awesome, cute, sweet, funny, compasionate kid I have ever been in love with. So I know that might sound creepy to some of you, but Moms, you know how it is. You don't just love your kids, you are IN love with them. And you fall in love with them over and over.
Darren visited my grandparents today. They called me specifically to tell me what a polite, helpful and thoughtful young man he is. Apparently, my Mom took Darren and my grandmother grocery shopping today (my Mom takes her Mom each week for groceries. She's a saint). My grandma said that Darren went out of his way to help her with everything. He lifted all of the heavy stuff, he reached for all of the high and low stuff, he unloaded her cart at the check out counter and then loaded all of her groceries into the car. My grandmother spent her prime years in the era of the gallant gentlemen (like my grandfather) who opened car doors and pulled chairs out for their female companions. And SHE was impressed with Darren's manners.
Can I just weep myself to sleep?